(this is so late why am I doing this)
FCRP recently celebrated two years. I know, I know, it's really late, but I wanted to highlight it briefly before I get to the real reason I wrote this.
The real reason was that I wanted to highlight something extremely personal to me.
About a year ago to the date of me writing this (April 22) I first figured out my sexuality. It was an extremely huge breakthrough for me, and it has changed me to this day.
In those few days, I realized that I wasn't like anyone else who I knew. I was terrified of myself. I was scared of being myself. I was scared of accepting myself.
I kept myself silent about this. I wasn't comfortable with sharing this, but I also wasn't sure what to do. It was like nothing I've ever experienced.
I was a mess last year, and I'm still a mess today. Figuring out my sexuality was extremely hard on me mentally. I hid myself away from everyone, not knowing what to do or who to trust.
I couldn't bring the guts to speak to any of my friends in my personal life about it, and I didn't get that courage that I needed until last July. I didn't talk about any of my feelings for a long time.
At the time, I didn't really know who else was like me, being LGBT. Now, I've been around three who love me as a friend, and would always support me. Each and every one of them are in my personal life and they value a lot to me.
I've got one more thing to address: why I've been inactive. I'm actually super busy with my personal life and I'm still in a bit of a mess. Please don't hesitate to contact me on my talkpage if I'm truly needed.
-- it's time to start defying gravity, my love 01:37, April 23, 2017 (UTC)